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2008-05-26T17:29:00.000+08:00

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2008-05-26T14:54:00.001+08:00

wasn't feeling reali good after last nite.. having tis guilt in me.. hmm.. baobei ,bunny jie n kelly cheered me up.. feeling happy nw.. =)

2008-05-26T10:17:00.003+08:00

17th may 08
baobei cooked for us at amy bro's hse.. i love baobei's cooking.. =)
slack at bro's place wif xx n baobei.. jasper bro n kat came after dat ard 2plus.. i wanna sleep!!!!

loves.. hope we'll be tis close alwaiz..

2008-05-06T15:02:00.001+08:00

Our KL trip - 4days, 3 nites
Eat eat eat - Buikit Bintang, Petaling St, KLCC, Time Square
Sleep sleep sleep – Berjaya Time Square
Shop shop shop – Bukit Bintang, Petaling St, KLCC, Time Square
Play play play – Time Square Cosmo Theme Park, shooters and ladder game

My first trip wif CLSW my “alwaiz” baobei.. enjoyed/loves each n every second spent wif u.. including the tantrum tat woke me up from my sweet dream.. haaha.. I woke up wif that blur look.. n faster get changed n off to Theme park.

Baobei enjoyed herself during the trip !!!!!!!!! tat’s the most important thing… let’s plan our 2nd trip.. Whee =)
Someone actually had supper wif me every nite.. n its reali a feast.. yumm..
I’m beginning to lyk Korean cuisine.. haaha..

Exams are round the corner.. must concentrate k.. keep ur mind off all the redundant tots.. if wanna haf ramdom tots, haf it after all ur papers.. dun let it affect ur studies k.. let’s go studying.. hmm.. go library.. haaha.. I can read my books n sleep.. =D I wanna read weather climate, geographic, Atlas etc.. haaha.. my favourite books.. these are the onli books which will nt haf yawning effect on me.. =D

Loves CL
From jovetubbies aka xiao maomao aka SBT (sensored) =D

2008-04-25T16:36:00.002+08:00

This Blog Is Especially For My Darling Baobei CL.

We had our enjoyable and sweet moments these 2mths irregardless of the numerous minor down point. We had our smiles n laughter though I know they did not really contain happiness, I really appreciate the effort you put up in in order to show a strong front.

At times I might piss you off in a way or another, but do believe that it is out of unintentional. I’m trying my best to be an ABC towards all your “emo” postings etc. This pillar of yours will always try to remain strong for you to lean n cry on.

I appreciate the times when you came all the way to surprise me, to bring smile back on my face when I’m down or pissed, accompanying me to gatherings despite the fact that you’re tired, accommodating me to have meals at certain areas when you feel like having it elsewhere; because you’re aware I’m hard up, catching the bus home early though you feel like going out have fun; because you know I’ve to take last bus home.

Every single thing you do, I’m really appreciative cause its YOU who’s making all the efforts. The 2 promises I made to you, I’ll remember and fulfill.

Winter snow is falling down
Children laughing all around
Lights are turning on
Like a fairy tale come true

Sitting by the fire we made
You’re the answer when I prayed
I would find someone
And baby I found you

Chorus:All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I’m thankful every day
For the gift

Watching as you softly sleep
What I’d give if I could keep
Just this moment
If only time stood still
But the colors fade away
And the years will make us grey
But baby in my eyes
You’ll still be beautiful

Chorus:All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I’m thankful every day
For the gift

(piano solo)

Chorus:All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
I can’t find the words to say
That I’m thankful everyday
For the gif

2008-04-14T19:33:00.000+08:00

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2008-04-14T18:02:00.000+08:00

Like I said, if one is matured enough to understand the necessity of the particular conversation, UNNECESSARY conflicts are avoidable. However, I guess I was proven wrong.

Everything is jus so simple. It all depends on how u looked at it.

Reply with harshness to the one who stir things up, not the one who sit n listens.
For the one who sits n listens did nothing.

For one to make such harsh remarks/comments truly portrays herself to others she tired. But how many have put a thought to the one who sits and cry silently to herself.

Friends will not be caught in between if there’s no unnecessary “passing of updates to another” thus causing unnecessary conversations which allows 3rd / 4th parties to get affected.

Everyone is starting afresh. However, anyone with the right sense of mind and heart will tends to reminisce and hold back the beautiful memories that were once created. There’s no need for any harshness in forcing anyone to leave ultimately.

Sad to say, there’s no need for a “hope” that it’ll be the last time giving such a speech. For the one who cries silently truly understand your intentions. Therefore, I sincerely appreciate you’ll allow her to leave without any further harshness.

Thou shall probe no further into thee life if above mentioned can be settled peacefully. No one has the abilities to disrupt your mindset. Others can fuck your mind but it’s oneself who make all decisions in regards to heart affairs. So, put off that blame on others for your own doings/decisions

2008-04-11T10:14:00.001+08:00

Disappointment filled me once again and this time it really slap hard.

Thanks jasper bro for your eggy Maggie and the 2ppl mj session. The warmness came at the rite time.
Loves..

it was till ytd dat i realise.. waiting, miracles, pinning of hopes exists..
I wished.. I hoped.. bt I’ll rather

2008-04-10T15:52:00.001+08:00

Alrite.. I’m here to blog.. =)
Guess wad.. baobei came fetch me from work ytd again.. =D bt.. tis silly goose walked all the way from cityhall to my working place.. diaox.. its lyk soooo far can.. almost ½ hour walk.. under the hot sun??!! diaox.. hmm.. *touch* but there’s a sense of indescribable feeling.. I dunno.. just hate to see her being alone.. moreover walking so far under the sun.. =(

Hmm.. ok.. another confession.. ya.. there was a tiny tweeny emo feeling ytd.. =P bt was ok after seeing her.. hmm.. silly goose alwaiz try to make my day though she was feeling tiny tweeny emo herself.. dat’s wad made me strong.. =)

I received a surprise on 9th April.. she sang a song for me wor.. heez… the title of the song is… haaha.. one of my favourite song.. neva for once tot she’ll the one singing for it me.. =D
though she wasn’t feeling reali good at tat point of time.. be it physically or mentally.. she managed to brings a smile.. loves..

2008-04-08T02:42:00.003+08:00

tis few days were sweet.. has been slacking at baobei's place.. hmm.. i'm no longer shy.. haaha.. i loves vitamins.. =P

baobei.. i know u ain't feeling ok at times.. i'll try nt to be emo k.. =)
i noe i haffa be stronger than u are.. in order to be there for u.. helping to keep u going strong..
things ain't easy for u now.. jus take things easy k.. =) i'll try my best to make u find ur smiles again..
i'm learning to read ur blog wif a "bo chap" mindset..
dun worry bout me ya.. =)
wad matters most to me is finding ur smiles n xingfu back again..
i dun care whether doing silly things iszit being considered a clown.. all i noe is as long as it makes u smile.. i'll smile.. =)
loves..

2008-04-05T08:25:00.002+08:00

3 vitamins today.. omg.. *thump thump thump... pooof* hrt flew off..
went amy bro's place for feasting together wif xx, baobei n yun.. fun fun fun.. slack at bro's hse after xx n yun went off.. haaha.. fell asleep as usual.. o.O after i wake up, baobei fell asleep.. we left ard 3plus to her hse.. slack n chat at the playground area till morning 7am..
thank baobei for accompanying me.. i noe u're tired n ur eyes are lyk half close.. =)
loves.. muackz.. =D

2008-04-04T16:46:00.004+08:00

no more emo chimp again.. heez.. loves.. smooochhhhh...
we'll stay in our dreams lyk tis forever..
no more disturbance.. i'll protect u from them all..
will neva scold u when u cry.. will onli wipe tears off ur eyes.. n make u smile..

companied baobei to her class ytd.. i fell asleep in class.. haaha..
luckily neva snore.. *shy*
went haf dinner at KAP Mac... happy..

2008-04-03T02:10:00.001+08:00

no longer noes wad lies in future..

2008-04-03T00:44:00.000+08:00

baobei gave me a pleasant surprise today.. she came fetch me from work.. *happy n touched*

2008-04-02T12:18:00.001+08:00

28.03.08
Met baobei at TYP n proceed to turf city to collect our first car.. we rented Fiat 8597.. nice no.
We drove to Nicole’s place for steamboat and stayed there till 11plus.. we routed ard jurong areas den decided to go amk play pool.. when we arrive amk, amy called n ask us to fetch her home from boat quay.. off we go.. heez.. baobei drove me back home after picking up amy..

29.03.08
Woke up earli to cook lunch for baobei.. made her cod fish with broccoli and potato cubes.. she came fetch me after work ard 1.30pm.. yeah.. feeling great.. she had her lunch in the car at my hse downstair n we’re off to the zoo.. she loved the white tigers there, also penguins n manatees, haaha.. I love the baboons, penguins n giraffes there.. I went for my KFC at zoo.. yes!! we proceed to her clubhouse bathe n went fetch shikin and marlyn at their place.. wow.. one end to another.. heez.. met Adeline n boon at far east for dinner at far east.. baobei was in her clubbing mood.. n we left for dbl O.. met her frens kenneth n dom there.. din reali drink much.. =P opps.. we drove to hkg café for our supper ard 4plus.. n she drove me home cuz I need to wake up ard 7plus..
Baobei n frens went T3 without me.. wad??!! Without me… hmfph!!!

30.03.08
tis day was fun n slacky.. hmm.. actually was feeling bery xingfu/sweet.. =P
we woke up ard 2pm.. n baobei came fetch me ard 3plus.. we drove to haf our late lunch.. Bak Kut Teh at Beo Crescent.. haaha.. blur chimp make poor baobei drove round n round the area.. luckily we manage to find it.. heez.. =P ordered baobei’s favourite food.. yummy.. tink of it make me drools.. heez.. after lunch we decided to drop by great world city to shop for big bird’s present. I lost my hp while trying clothes at Esprit.. luckily baobei help me got it back.. heez.. if nt all my msgs will be gone.. *cries*
after shopping, brought baobei to haf dessert - cheesecake treat.. =) she gt herself a strawberry cheesey mousse n lime juice I got myself bailey’s cheesecake wif morning ape.. yum.. haaha.. baobei’s horror.. morning ape!!
After our treat, we went collect our car n drove to Esmirada for dinner.. nice nice.. they had their “good luck day” n the waitress start smashing plates on the concrete floor.. baobei tried smashing 1 too.. heez..
Hmm.. we drove to mosque st. to look for big bird.. she had her singing competition at Yuan Dian.. we stayed for awhile n left for our ECP.. yeah.. I love beach trip at nite.. keke.. guided baobei to my fav. Spot n we sat there from 11plus to 1plus.. n we packed mac on the way back..
Heez.. I wanna go ECP wif u again.. l wanna watch sunrise wif u.. =)
Reali enjoy the times spent wif baobei.. i love going beach with baobei at nite.. heez.. huggies!!!!

2008-03-28T14:27:00.000+08:00

lost carebear looking for other bears.. Where u guys.. Bring me home..

2008-03-27T03:41:00.003+08:00

disappointment is all i felt..
or is there a better word to describe in this whole senario?

//
warmest blessings given or iszit jus some kinda prank..
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experienced a kaleidoscope right before my eyes.. formed from rays of light and droplets..

2008-03-23T22:57:00.005+08:00

i've received a surprised xiuxiu from her ytd.. was reali surprised that she actualli went to find n got it for me when she learnt tat i lost it.. feelings for her is growing stronger each day.. i wanna bring her to wherever she wanna go.. eat wadever she wanna eat.. do wadever she wanna do.. as long as she's happy.. jus wish to see her happy n xingfu alwaiz..

finalli i found the rite song to sing to her.. >

felt kinda sad cuz i left her alone last nite.. dunno y having tis feeling.. jus felt bery sad y did i leave her alone.. =(

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2008-03-22T09:42:00.002+08:00

Unintentional and unaware feelings do actually exist..
Pampering her in my very own ways..
Nv for once show her attitude/temper..
Noticing all her small little movements..
Making complaints bout her just to cover up unintentionally..
All these I realized only now..

We had our first date on 29th Feb.. brought her to goodwood park coffee lounge for dinner..
Gave her a nice surprise.. =) met up wif xx after dat n went NOS.. had our midnite movies after NOS..

Went to Evon’s chalet on 1st Mar.. apparently, a disastrous thing happened…

12th Mar she had her ladies session.. I went to meet big bird n fren at NOS.. went over earlier n had drinks alone..
She gave me surprise by poping up suddenly.. no words describes my feelings at that point of time bt jus hug her tightly.. its so sweet of her.. –melt totally-

Went to big bird’s chalet on 18th Mar.. I bbq for her while she rush her assignments out.. drank quite a lot.. cuz was feeling happy.. we drove out to get more beer.. n I bought her her favourite ben’s & jerry ice cream.. felt so xingfu in the car.. my dream scene.. love dat chalet trip so much.. =D left on 19th morning n went white sand’s mac.. accompanied her from 10plus till 6plus.. she finalli finished her assignment..

Jus wanna say.. the times spent wif u are memorable.. it brings me happiness.. n I’m going to announce out loud.. I’m going after Charmaine Lim Shi Wei.. my baobei.. i wanna hold your hands for as long as I can.. so make sure u’re alwaiz feeling cold k.. i wanna see ur sleepy morning look alwaiz.. n u'll alwaiz falls under category 1, 2 & 3 no matter wad.. =D

be it past n present, i'll neva change the way i treat u.. the same old treatment that u've alwaiz noe.. n towards u, i'll alwaiz be smiley.. i'll neva have the need to complain anymore.. =D

2008-01-23T11:07:00.000+08:00

i moved out to jasper's place - 1st day

vex...

2008-01-22T16:37:00.001+08:00

Lyk wad did I do.. fuck you lor.. feel lyk moving out to stay.. if onli my mom allow.. bt I noe she wun.. bt maybe tis time she’ll allow.. for a few days maybe.. to stay away from things.. he wan me to move out den move out lah.. lyk I scare of him.. I dun gif a fuck to him lor..
Argh.. 2008 suppose to be a great yr for me isn’t it.. bt y??

*tears drop*

2008-01-17T14:09:00.001+08:00

Y do I still feel tis way.. y do I still feel the pain when she’s feeling sad n cried..
Iszit cuz of the close bondage between us or .. what should I do??
Tears drop..

i love you

2008-01-15T22:43:00.001+08:00

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2008-01-14T17:58:00.001+08:00

Busy busy today.. mistakes n compounds from my accounts.. felt bad.. feel lyk leaving at times.. bt.. haiz.. nvm..
I’m bored.. lifeless.. no longer looking forward to after work.. everyone’s dead..

Finalli its 6pm.. meeting nasty for dinner.. yeah..

2008-01-09T10:25:00.000+08:00

feeling so sucks everyday.. everything in life sucks.. argh.. fuck off.. emo.. Hope my institution is wrong tis time.. who will be there.. -sob- *lost trust*

2008-01-02T09:20:00.000+08:00

being an emo nowsaday.. losing my direction.. are we still going to the trip.. her words/cries still rang in my mind.. y do i still feel the pain.. hello.. is there anyone out there?

2008 wishes: jus hope each n everyone of us will be back again.. i miss all of u.. everyone's missing in action will help the group to be united ma? ain't we suppose to be united? where's all the love, care n concern?

2007-12-31T16:55:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry.. i've neva meant to hurt you.. hurting u is the last thing i'll ever do.. intoxication causes my unreasonable behaviour.. i was such a bastard.. i've neva mean the way i said.. pls dun cry.. it reali hurts to hear u cry esp i'm the one tis time causing u to tear.. i've alwaiz tot i'll neva be the one to make u cry.. bt i did.. u're alwaiz the one ya.. i love you..

i'm a fucking retard.. to hell..

2007-12-24T10:28:00.000+08:00

2007 has finally past.. reflections of 2007 brings heartache. Love sucks..

New resolution for 2008..
Yang Gf for lives..
earn more money..
get my fucking license..
more clothes..
Looking good..

2007-12-22T09:25:00.000+08:00

Wad’s wrong? Everything doesn’t seems in place.. emo.. argh.. tell me wad should I do.. felt so lost suddenly.. everything’s nt rite.. arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-22T14:37:00.000+08:00

All at once,
I finally took a moment and I'm realizing that
Your not coming back
And it finally hit me
All at once
All at once
I started counting teardrops and at least a million fell
My eyes began to swell
And all my dreams were shattered
All at once
Ever since I met you
You're the only love I've known
And I can't forget you
So I must face it all alone
Chorus:
All at once
I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Wishing you'd come back to me
And that's all that matters now
All at once
I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Holding on to memories
And it hurts me more than you know
So much more than it shows
All at once
All at once,
I looked around and found that you were with another love
In someone else's arms
And all my dreams were shattered
All at once
All at once
The smile that used to greet me brightened someone else's day
She took your smile away
And left me with just memories
All at once
Ever since I met you
You're the only love I've known
And I can't forget you
So I must face it all alone
Chorus:
All at once
I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Wishing you'd come back to me
And that's all that matters now
All at once
I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Holding on to memories
And it hurts me more than you know
So much more than it shows
All at once

2007-08-10T09:28:00.001+08:00

left work earli ard 6pm on wed 08.08.. took a train to bugis wif aspe cuz we need to check into the hotel.. poor aspe.. the hotel was book by her for her gf de.. bt haiz.. in the end she's going stay over wif me n jesse n jasper.. after checking in, she went to bathe n we left for town.. so diaox can.. so wierd checking in wif her.. hmm.. we went to find reb.. aspe tried to persuade her to go.. bt she insist nt to.. haiz.. den we went down to "her" workplace.. heez.. finalli can get to see her le.. had too much drink dat day.. went over to adele's pub for drink cuz me n her hubby challenge.. haha.. when i went back to her pub, i was lyk so high le.. we order porridge n eat.. adeline fed me cuz i burn my lip n refuse to eat le.. den she came over n eat my porridge.. den i say i wanna eat n she fed me wor.. heez.. hmm.. was bery seh dat day.. den went to toliet n puke.. before going home, i try to finish my porridge.. haha.. it was lyk kinda cold le.. den she saw me eating she say she oso wan.. so i feed her the porridge.. keke.. first time feeding her wor.. felt so sweet.. hmm..
we went back to the hotel wif adeline after dat.. jasper din meet us cuz she went somewhere else.. diaox.. we slept ard 4plus.. she complained dat i snore.. haha.. poor thing.. she din get to sleep.. i was woke up by her cuz she went to puke ard 7plus.. she puke 5times siaz.. poor thing.. took care of her.. hope she feels better.. hmm.. i noe she's tired le.. made her sleep by tapping her.. bt she din fall asleep.. instead i fell asleep.. haha.. she ask me lie down n sleep cuz she noes i'm tired le.. hmm.. felt so xin fu to sleep beside her.. first time wor.. haha.. aspe shifted to the side.. n she's lyk sleeping lyk a pig.. O.o" we left bugis ard 1plus.. went home n sleep.. woke up ard 5plus 6.. wanted to go fetch her when she go meet michelle.. bt i din.. hmm.. so i went town to find amy for dinner..

she came to far east for dinner at long john wif michelle.. hmm.. i met them den we deciding where to go.. in the end we finalise to go "live pub" haha.. we reach there n we played pool.. enjoy myself lots.. we stayed till closing.. n suddenly alac called n tell her her ex at PLAY.. michelle wanna go down.. den they left me.. i bery she bu de she go over.. bt i let her go.. din follow cuz i'm kinda broke le.. bt after they left, i felt bery bu fan xin.. called jasper for a chat.. after dat i walked from LIDO to maxwell.. the journey was damn long.. my legs are lyk so tired.. hmm.. din wanna take cab cuz i tot of reaching there jus in time for the closing.. den she can come out.. dowan reach earli n make her come out.. when i reach, i called her n she ask where am i.. i told her i'm outside play.. she was bery shock.. n ask me y i come over.. i told her cuz i bu fan xin her go meet her ex.. she noes i walked over n she ask y i so "sa" come all the way to find her.. she went in play to bring out tissue for me cuz she saw dat i was bery hot.. dunno y i'm alwaiz so "Sa" for her.. jus wanna protect her n let her be happy.. dun wish to see her cry anymore.. many ppl say i'm bery "Sa".. bt i felt its sweet.. jasper bro call me silly fool when she noes i'm going over find her.. hmm.. she came down look for me n haf supper at maxwell.. den she help me send her home..

tis morning woke up.. felt so sick.. when i on the bus, bee eng say i'm having high fever.. tink its cuz of last nite i was bery sweaty n the wind keep blowing me.. dat's y got a cold le.. today dun tink i going find her le ba.. hmm.. dowan her to see the sick me.. dun wish tat she feel guilty cuz of her i got sick.. i go find her tml ba.. heez. kk.. janet's in office le.. better go work now..

2007-08-08T18:01:00.000+08:00

01/08/07
today after work went down to find her at her workplace.. i brought her a big rose.. it did cheer her up.. :) i accompanied her till she finish work n we went over cnc.. met jasper there.. n went supper wif alac, justin, jasper n her.. we stayed there till ard 4plus.. den we took cab home.. hmm.. alac n justin went off first.. we agreed to meet up the next day to go PLAY.

02/08/07
after work went over to find her again.. tis time went wif aspe n reb.. bought her fish porridge cuz her teeth still hurts n can't eat solid food.. n she din haf much dinner.. hmm.. she was surprise to see the porridge.. haha.. bt she said she taken 2nd round dinner le.. so she eat after work.. hmm.. she made a drink n ask me try.. it was nice.. we played pool.. after aspe n reb left, she ate her porridge.. n she make me eat half.. she's soo cute.. can't help bt falling for her.. she let me drink the balance drink which she made.. we drank together from a jug using 2 straw.. haha.. *excited*
after work, we took her co. van to PLAY where we met alac.. i stick close to her cuz i scare i'll lose her..
she went to the toliet n make her hair.. haha.. silly ger.. she spray the head wif her hair spray n everyone was lyk looking at her.. we went to the bar counter there n i watch her dance.. awhile ltr i went out meet jasper.. we stayed out for quite sometime cuz jasper not enuff cash to enter.. den i smuggled jasper in.. we went to 7-11 cuz i bought corets for her.. den we walk back to find her..
hmm.. we left PLAY ard 3plus 4..

04/08/07
went to work ard 10plus cuz overslept.. haha.. stay at workplace till 4plus.. den went to her place fetch her to work.. hmm.. suppose to meet her at 5pm.. bt i was late.. cuz i blur sotong took the wrong side of train.. den reach ard 5.20pm.. haha.. she was late too.. luckily siaz.. she rush down.. n she was lyk so hot.. n her face was so red.. poor thing.. hmm.. we took the train to outram n went to her workplace. in the train.. she ask me to try the porridge.. when we reach her workplace, she got me a glass water.. haha.. i'm lyk so thirsty siaz.. hmm.. haha she order the porridge for me.. n we sat n eat together.. first time so close wif her.. felt so sweet.. was actualli quite full le.. bt i finish up all the porridge cuz it was ordered n paid by her.. after dinner, i went out n walk all over chinatown trying to get her donut.. she wanted to eat the strawberry donut which aspe was queing to get.. bt aspe din manage to get for her.. i scare she'll be disppointed so i din tell her n i went out to find.. i search all the cheers n 7-11 n bakery shops in chinatown.. bt there's none.. ask my colleague.. he told me go maxwell market there.. diaox.. he bluff me.. asshole.. i call him.. n he say dun buy donut lah.. but tau sa piah.. kaoz.. make me walk there to buy tau sa piah.. hmm.. awhile ltr alac came down find us.. we went over to cnc again.. haha.. den we met jasper there n went down to ALL IN pub look for jasper's fren.. n went down OT.. diaox.. she dun reali lyk dat place.. hmm.. i was abit diaox too.. we din reali enjoyed ourself.. we left ard 6am.. went home sleep..

05/08/07
i woke up at 9plus to help my colleagues with the permit.. but i was half sleeping when telling them how to go about amending it.. haha.. finalli i "rudely" awaken by them ard 12plus.. n i told them the actual step.. haha.. guess i was too tired.. haha.. its so farni lor.. tell them all the rubbish.. hmm.. i went back sleep till 3pm.. she missed call me.. n i called back when i wake up.. haha.. she was lyk.. wah.. u now den wake up ar.. den i was lyk ya lor.. den we were tinking where to go.. finalli i decided to go down find amy.. she's ok wif it.. haha.. so i told her meet her at town.. bt i gave her a surprise.. i faster go get changed n went out of hse n rush down to her place.. heez.. i reach le n i msg her say i'm at yew tee le.. she called me half hour ltr n say "omg.. y u here so earli.. sorry.. i chop chop down k.." den she was lyk saying i waited for bery long le.. but i keep assuring her say no its ok.. haha.. told her not to rush down cuz if nt her face will be red n swollen again.. hmm.. finalli get to see her at 7pm.. so happy.. we took train down to town.. haha.. it was a sweet ride for me.. haha.. hmm.. we went to eat kfc.. n went back amy's shop n went down to cnc.. yeah.. finalli amy's coming out wif us.. haha.. we met alac there.. jasper came find us ard 11plus.. hmm.. she lost a game n had to do the fuck dance.. haha.. n i oso lost the game to jasper n had to do 10 star jump.. diaox.. hmm.. had fun there.. when i played pool wif her, i let her win to boost her confidence in pool again.. yeah.. finali she did it.. bt wif more practise.. we sang her fav. song bai se feng che.. haha.. i promise i'll learn n sing wif her.. keke..

aspe called ard 12plus n say she doesn't wanna go home.. she's at reb's blk.. diaox.. we took a cab n rush down find her.. den slack at clementi till 4plus in the morning.. den we take cab back.. so tired wor..

06/08/07

she's nt working today.. haha.. met her at victoria's pub ard 11plus 12 after my work.. hmm.. i went find amy first.. den slowly walk over to the pub.. she's wif michelle.. she look so cute tonite.. haha.. wadever.. she's alwaiz so cute looking.. haha.. bites.. we stayed out till ard 3plus den go home.. her fren ask if i'm sending her home.. i was lyk so paiseh.. i din haf enuff cash.. hmm.. i told her no.. cuz i din haf enuff cash.. O.o den we made our way to the taxi stand.. when she go off, i msg her saying dat i'm sorry.. i couldn't send u home tonite.. she reply me wif a silly n a smiley face n say u take care too.. haha..

07./08/07
was bery broke to go find her.. hmm.. bt i miss her so much.. i made her a rose n bring it down to cheer her up.. cuz she was upset bout something.. hmm. gave her a surprise.. haha.. she din expect to see me outside her workplace.. i pass her my corets.. n tell her dat i wun be able to meet u these 2 days.. u haf my corets n eat them when i'm nt ard u k.. she smile n take it.. haha.. i miss her so much.. felt so wierd nt spending the whole nite wif her..

2007-08-01T19:15:00.000+08:00

today staying late in office again.. hmm.. has been working bery late tis whole mth.. now shifted to jurong le.. lagi worse siaz..
hmm.. last fri stayed back at great world to do our final packing.. den sat earli morning went to jurong new office n waited till 4plus den start our packing n all the labour.. got many cuts on my hands.. accidently hurt my finger when i was carrying the heacy cupboard.. got my finger trap under the cupboard n i pull out my finger.. in the end the nails n some skin came off.. hmm.. felt pain bt din realise it bleed till i saw my shirt redred.. haha.. diaox.. hmm.. actualli 30th wanted to meet kelly to pass her things n go mommy hse.. but i realise i've got many things to do.. den gotta stay back in office.. den when i reach mommy hse will be lyk almost 11plus.. hmm.. bt i din tell her lah.. i jus tell her i've got something on so cannot make it.. n in the end we quarrelled badly.. anyway mommy called me the next day n i explain to her le.. she ask me go up visit her one day.. i told her ya i'll.. long time neva see her le.. kinda miss her.. bt tis time i'll be going up alone.. hmm.. dunno how it feels lyk. ahha.. nvm..

hmm.. ltr meeting aspe going to a pub.. dunno aspe can go nt.. she's being asked to the warehouse to help out.. nowsaday everyone has been going to warehouse to help.. cuz reali lack of manpower.. wah.. everyday oso busy siaz.. i din even haf my lunch today.. louise jus complained dat he reach home 12plus 1 last nite siaz.. diaox.. hopefully tis workload will end soon ba.. everyday so tired.. luckily got co.transport bus come pick me everyday at my hse downstair ard 8.10 siaz.. if nt i sure die.. ask me go take bus at 7am to clementi.. hmm.. kk.. gotta go off le.. better hurry finish my things.. if nt gotta stay here till 10plus again le..

2007-07-15T04:08:00.001+08:00

我讨厌阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝
直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
可不可以任性
求求你不要去藏在我心里
最后一句其实还爱你

2007-06-24T03:02:00.000+08:00

张栋梁-北极星的眼泪

像断了线
消失人海里面
我的眼终于失去
你的脸
再等一会
奢望流星会出现
愿
如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天
或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天
越来越远
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着
爱不见

再等一会
奢望流星会出现
愿
如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天
或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天
越来越远
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱不见

当对的人等不到对的时间
就在放放开手的瞬间
爱撕成两边

北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱不见
整个宇宙都流眼泪

-=there's no forever.. dun promise anything if u can't fulfill.. thanks for letting me noe u cannot make a desicion.. =-

ROBBED !!!!!!!!!

2005-03-19T10:15:00.000+08:00

hey.. it was sooo scary.. alrite.. everything started after my work ends.. i met kat at my workplace bus stop.. we make our way to wheelers cafe n waited for jesse. she came about an hour ltr. she went JB.. hmm.. me n kat was lyk playing true or dare.. but we onli play true.. ahahah.. play until sooo sian.. finalli we saw jesse bike.. ahaha.. was sooo happy to see her again. she came n sat beside us.. she was bery tired.. we stayed there n play cards till ard 9.45 den jesse had to go.. she meeting her frens for a drink.. so me n kat left oso. i took a bus home.. was meeting jasmine at my hse downstair for a chat.. had been meetin her at our blks nearby for chat these few nites.. i arrived first den waiting for her to come. she told me to wait for another 20mins..

an indian guy ard mid 20 came n borrowed hp from me to make an urgent call.. i bluff him dat my hp low bat. so din wanna lend him.. on the other hand i msg jasmine n ask her faster come. dat guy waited for bery long.. den he din wanna leave.. in the end i decided to lend him cuz there were afew ppl walking ard. so guess he couldn't run away wif the hp. but the call he made was damn long. he said he wanted to call his mom n ask her bring down the money to pay for his cab fare. i sense something was wrong cuz he told me his mom not at home. but y is he calling home? i followed him ard.. he started to walk away.. of cuz i followed on. he walked further n faster.. den he reached the main road n suddenly a cab came n the door was opened.. he started to run towards the cab.. i ran after him n pull him out of the cab. his frens are the driver n another indian guy sitting in front. he came out of the cab n we struggled bery long.. he pushed n break free n run towards the cab. luckily i managed to stop him jus before he got in. i keep struggling n refuse to let him go.. ahha.. of cuz lah.. my hp cost me 600 mann.. haha.. but in the end despite me grabbing him, he push me away n run to cab. i open the door n snatched my hp away.. he let go of my hp cuz dere's cab behind watching le.

wow.. scary mann.. diaox.. robbed first time in my whole life.. but i was bery surprised dat i had the strength n courage to fight back..

first time out wif jesse

2005-03-17T01:00:00.000+08:00

today bery happi.. met jesse n ronson at wheelers cafe.. we sat there as usual n chat. ard 7 plus, ronson make a move first.. he was feeling bery upset cuz of his break up. hmm.. me n jesse sat n chat for awhile till 8plus. sat her bike for the first time. we went SSC wanted to play pool. but it was crowded so she drove to chinatown kaster. heez.. was so scare to sit her bike wor.. but after 2nd trip felt much beter le.. we parked at C&C.. pop in to see if anyone's ard.. but it was lyk sooo quiet.. so we walk to kaster. hmm.. she sang bery nice.. i sang lyk shit.. ahha.. i dun lyk the system there.. hmm.. we stayed till 12 den walk back to her bike.. she wanted to send me home.. cuz it was bery late n if take cab will waste lotsa money. in the end i agreed cuz i wanted to spend more time wif her. heez.. wow.. she speed home mann.. my helmet nearly fly off my head.. diaox.. but the whole ride was bery fun as if the whole road belongs to us. when she reach my hse, i waited for her to keep everything le den i watched her go off.. yeah.. i wanna learn bike in 2 weeks time.. traallalalalala...

hey peep. i'm back

2005-03-14T23:36:00.000+08:00

i'm back.. been so long since i last blog le.. i gotta noe a ger at C&C.. got a good impression ever since i first saw her on 4th mar.. she was att at tat time.. after dat i went down on 7th again to see if i can see her.. she's not there.. i saw her on 11th mar. i was bery happi.. i chat wif her during pool games.. she's 26 yr old.. been missing her since 4th wor.. its lyk wow.. other than xb, she's the 2nd ger in my life i've fallen for n is older than me by 3 yr.. hmm.. guess its jus crush ba..
11th mar, she quarrelled wif her gf.. she sounded bery sad.. i met her on 12th mar at C&C again. she looked bery haggard.. i was feeling bery sad.. y should i feel sad.. its onli a crush.. i asked her out on 13th mar. she seems lyk she's another person.. i was bery upset to see her lyk tis.. realli bery upset.. the feeling is bery different from past crush n likings.. i guess i luv her.. hmm.. i noe i'm not her type.. i jus wanna be by her side letting her noe she's not alone.. it realli hurts me to see her tis way.. can i do something to help her ease the pain?? i wanted to apply a whole week's off jus to accompany her.. at least she's not alone n she wun tink so much.. but i couldn't.. i can onli wait till after 28th.. hmm.. jus pray n hope she'll get over tis soon..

woo woo

2005-02-20T16:58:00.000+08:00

hey bloggy.. long time din blog le.. hmm.. my bloggy got miss me??? heez.. well my readers does i guess.. ahahah.. owner.. i miss u too.. long time nia see u le.. hmm.. dunno wadda blog leh.. nvm.. shall tok bout my fri nite..oh no.. its one of the worst nite mann.. me, xb,laopa,asa,jason,marie,lionel n his wife went blue hut for dinner n a drink.. woohoo.. we ordered a few jugs of beer.. den all left except me, xb n jsaon, me n xb shared a bottle of red wine.. wow. got drunk after dat one bottle mann.. after dat we ordered another bottle of white wine.. hahah.. dat got both of us down.. jason was lyk a mad man taking care of us when we were lyk sleeping n puking siaz.. yucks.. hmm.. xb cried dat nite cuz of her problems.. she keep saying guys sucks.. gers better. ahah.. she held my hands n ask if i still lyk her.. hmm.. anyway i noe she's drunk. so din tink much oso.. was surprised how i managed to keep my cool self..

was online today.. den happen to noe tis ger "melissa" heez.. she's nice.. a dancer.. saw her friendster.. hey dat's when i saw tis "zaeron" on my friendster.. haahah.. tink i noe her gf.. her gf is someone i used to play n go out wif when we're lyk pri skool.. hmm.. was bery surprised dat she turn out to be a passive wor..
sent her a msg on friendster.. wonders if she will reply.. nvm.. k lah.. tink i shall stop here.. heez.. ciaoz...

macaroni lunchie

2004-12-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

whee.. we cook macaroni for lunch today at office.. hmm.. wow.. for the whole week it was lyk so fun.. bout 10 of us eating in the conference room.. hmm.. last thurs we had sushi, fri n monday had porridge n today had marcaroni.. yum.. tml we're going haf claypot rice wor.. wow.. so much dish we can come up wif jus one additional rice cooker.. we cook together n wash our bowls n everything together.. heez.. felt so much closer nowsaday..

ytd met jasper bro for kbox at cine.. hmm.. we sang for bout an hour den her gf came.. its was their anni actualli.. haha.. din feel awakard cuz we're all so close.. :P we left cine ard 11+ cuz her stead haffa be home by 12.. anyway, i've to go off earli too.. thurs having paper le.. hmm.. haben study yet siaz.. i look at the file oso dunno wadda study.. absolutely no mood.. =X

haiz.. tink i better go try read thru ba.. if not thurs can sleep throughout the paper le..

13 trying to study

hair cut

2004-12-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

whee.. i had a bad hair cut today.. went alene's hse.. help her buy her lunchn got her some bread.. she lyk bery poor thing.. hse no food to eat.. i reach her hse ard 3plus...choose a nice hair style from a book.. n she start working on my hair.. after donkey years, she finalli finish almost 4/5 of it.. i wanted to see my hair. oh shit.. my nice hair is gone.. 4/5 of it is on the floor.. she cut too short.. she machiam shave my whole head leaving my fringe. =X well.. she felt so bad about it.. keep asking me to go to those $10 10 min hair cut.. ok lor.. i've got no choice le.. went there to ask them help me settle the mess.. haiz.. my hairy.. all gone.. now felt so botak.. shitty mann..

hmm.. luckily the out turn is still not bad. jus dat i can't style my messy spiky look le.. heez.. she say i look more yandao le wor.. =P after haircut, we went town.. shop ard n waited for my colleague, annie.. she came lyk 7pm.. we went up sakae sushi for dinner.. yum.. i gave alene a treat cuz she now oso no longer working le.. hmm.. n she felt so bad about my hair too.. but anyway today was fun.. annie bought many clothes siaz..

watched shutter

2004-11-26T11:32:00.000+08:00

ytd went watch shutter wif karen, xb annie n her hubby steven. the show was nice wor.. heez.. we were lyk arrghh.. throughout the show.. hahah hmm.. first time watch horror movie wif them.. we left bishan ard 10pm. steven drove me to jasmine's hse downstair n met her ard 10plus. she jus came back dat evening. we sat at the next blk n chat till bout 11.30pm.. den i went back.. hmm.. nice to haf someone staying opp my blk.. heez.. can meet up anything when bored.. :P

she asked me last nite online if i lyk her.. well.. i myself oso dunno.. maybe lyk her as companion ba.. anyway she oso lyk someone else.. hmm.. anyway i asked her not to tink so much... to her i'm onli a didi ba.. ahhah..

tonite might be meeting her n lina n mark for a drink.. lina will be giving us a treat.. i dunno if should go or not.. cuz laopa n the rest might be going for crab feast tonite.. yum.. we shall see how ba.. yeah.. another week gone.. tis month must save up for xmas le.. yipee.. oh ya..

13^slacking at work

met jasmine

2004-11-23T16:18:00.000+08:00

woohoo.. met jasmine n her 4 frens (mark, xiao jasmine, ocean n lina) ytd at bishan.. we slacked at mos burger till bout 6.30pm.. den jasmine went home for her dinner. we left to walk ard n went amk wait for jasmine to play pool. she came ard 8plus.. hmm.. we played pool till bout 9plus den went s11. i kept playing wif ocean.. cuz the rest alwaiz disappear out for smoke n chat.. diaox.. -_-" from there we went home ard 10plus.. walked wif jasmine to near her hse. den we part n go home.. hmm tis morning she left for malaysia. i walk pass her hse n say bye to her in the morning on my way to work.

*yawn* soo sleepy now.. 4plus in the afternoon.. wanted to go down for tea break wif laopa n ron. but my dept left karen onli.. den she got lotsa work to do.. so decided to stay in.. hmm..

heez.. jus now trick xb.. i went on her speaker loud.. me n karen off our speaker.. den i send an evil laughter to xb's msn.. ahhaha.. she got a shock i guess. the whole office filled wif the evil laughter.. ahahaah.. well.. i got beaten by her as usual.. -_-"

13^slack

suki sushi

2004-11-20T11:42:00.000+08:00

ytd left office ard 7pm.. onli me, xb n annie went cine Suki Sushi.. laopa got lotsa things to do so can onli meet us ard 9pm. We stay at Suki till bout 9plus.. yum... spent about $60+. In the end we din meet laopa cuz xb got other program n annie going find steven. I called Kriz bro see where she is.. den met her at cine.. she came wif maine baobei, Ling n her bf... we went upstair to play billard n pool... hmm surprisingly me tis week din touch a single drop of beer wor. We left cine ard 11plus. Dey went monks after dat.. n i went home.. wanted to meet adeline ne her bf at amk for a drink.. but was damn tired.. den somemore today haffa work.. so decided to go home.. heez.. yeah.. ltr going boat quay for an interview at coffeebean. actualli dat's was a fake interview which started on 06 nov.heez.. dat fri i met carol (kitty princess) n luvis.. we went boat quay coffeebean.. saw tis ger not bad looking.. heez.. me n luvis were commenting dat if we work here den can everyday bio her le.. haha.. so we came up wif the idea to go for interview jus to get a chance to tok to her.. she's the manager there. well.. we did get to tok to her.. heez.. n she was surprised dat i wanted to work there.. cuz she say i'm getting a high pay.. y will i wanna work for onli $4/hr.. heez i wanted to reply her "oh work here can pau u marhz.." hahah of cuz din reply her dat.. i told her jus a pastime job =P after dat.. we keep taking turns to go up to her n ask for things lyk pens, n other rubbish.. hahah.. when we're about to go off, i went outside n pass her her pen... she was smoking outside.. so i sat down n join her.. =P we were chating halfway den luvis n carol came out n join us.. heez.. she asked me if my workplace needs staff.. ahah.. i told her u gimme ur no. when dey require staff i'll call u.. =P so we exchanged no. heez.. We left ard 6plus.. i went meet laopa n the rest at parkway crystal jade..*yawn* wah.. now onli 11.20am.. diaox.. still haf another 1 hour to go den can go off le..

13^ zZzzz

waiting for laopa frankie

2004-11-17T19:39:00.000+08:00

now is 7.39pm le.. still waiting for laopa.. he's helping alisa wif her work i guess.. faster.. me wanna go home le.. soo tired.. yeah.. will be taking his car to bedok.. den i slowly take my bus back.. can sleep on bus le.. ron will be joining us to bedok too.. jus had a pack of maggie mee.. yum.. nice nice.. *burp*

ytd was fun.. me,karen n annie went sakura for dinner.. heez.. we wasted lotsa food n had fun hiding them.. we took 2 jellies for our dessert. We din lyk the flavours.,. jus took for fun.. each of us take a spoon n pass round.. heez.. the other 2 times we went wif alisa.. but ytd she was sick.. hmm.. reached home ard 8plus.. wow.. dat was earli mann..

tml will be another sianz day.. going for class again.. but no choice.. haffa go wor.. cuz lecturer will be giving us tips.. hmm.. tml is oso a happening day for me wor.. i'll be touching on AMS Filing.. wow.. the bery first time me doing wor.. heez.. hope wun be any mistake siaz.. i dowanna pay USD5k mann.. hmm.. once i master dat, i'll complete my USA training le wor.. heez.. today karen ask me.. wad will i wanna be in 5 yrs time.. i told her i wish to be an operation manager lyk my laopa.. heez.. soo nice..

nia chat wif 02 for quite some time on fone le wor.. 02, I MISS YOU!! heez.. nvm.. can shout all i wan.. she wun noe my bloggy.. =P

13^bored.. [missing you lotsa]

dinner at mercure roxy hotel

2004-11-13T01:17:00.000+08:00

yummy.. jus came back from a yummy yummy thai cusine. The dishes there looks cheap but the bill came to be ard 300 plus.. wow.. couldn't believe it mann.. luckily the atmosphere n the food's worth it.. after dinner, we went to the lounge for a drink.. shiok mann..

hmm.. tis week has been drinking n enjoying myself lotsa siaz.. mon had company function.. drank n had indonesian cusine, wed went kbox wif annie,karen,alisa for 6hours.. thurs went kbox wif adeline for 5 hours.. n today (fri) went mercure roxy. wow.. life's so shiok for me siaz..

13 thinking of 02

chimp cried

2004-11-10T01:15:00.000+08:00

jus told [02] dat continue being bro n mei will be better for her. she jus answered "i'm fine wif anything" haiz.. this is the hardest thing i ever wanna say to her. these words doesn't come from my hrt....

guess i'll be staying online tonite till she log off ba.. jus wanna accompany her silently.. hmm.. still remember de other nite.. she asked me a few questions. i tink was maths ba. heez.. i went asking ppl in IRC to solve for her siaz. even surf the net to get some answers for her.. haha.. opps.. she noes about me asking ppl in IRC.. so paiseh can..

chimp sadsad

2004-11-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today bought some cooling drinks for [02].. she's still having sore throat. spent the last bit of my allowance on her few cans of drinks.. hope there's enuff to last me till thurs wor..

i waited for her msg after work.. went down bedok area. hmm.. but she din msg me.. nvm.. she should be studying ba.. dun wanna disturb her.. left ard 8plus.. reach home soo tired sia..

saw a stoopid lizard.. arrghhh.. arsehole.. must be those fumigation thingy dat brought the lizard up.. *raise eyebrow* yeah.. today learnt about USA filing.. dat's cool..

oh ya.. last nite my CEO from Ohama came to visit us. hmm.. he look damn stern wor.. but last nite was fun.. the dinner was lyk damn shiok siaz.. the whole office sat down for dinner n drink at the hotel lounge.. haha.. yumm.. had too much drink last nite.. puke in the washroom siaz.. but luckily not drunk yet.. heez.. i realli wonder my drinking skill improves le wor.. :P can drink so much.. woohoo.. but still haben brush up my volka.. onli brush up my beer, wine, hard liquer..

hmm.. tonite was actualli kinda sad.. cuz of [02].. but anyway.. i tink its better for me to remain as wad i am ba.. her bro.. i'm jus too scare to luv again..

chimp^sad

i met 02 for the first time.

2004-10-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

long time nia blog le.. came in afew times.. but nothing blogged. met a special ger in my hrt ytd at 10.30pm wor.. she's [02].. =) n i wanna keepthis memory in me forever. so though my eye's are closing now, i stil must blog. =P
hmm.. she pop a question once asking me y i lyk her.. i've thought for a few days ever since she asked.. but up till date, i still haben find the answer.i guess maybe when u realli lyk a person, u dun need a reason ba..
ytd damn tired lor.. went wild wild wet ard 2plus.. suppose to haf more ppl turning up.. onli alisa, nel, ting, wenwen n me.. =X i've got no choice wor.. if i dun turn up, i've to wear bikini n parade ard.. kaoz.. "ke wu" hmm its was quite fun actualli.. we din meet up for about 2yrs le.. after WWW, we went pasir ris park.. was kinda bored there n wedecided to go party world.. heez.. dat's when i went [02]'s hse
i bought her 'pi ga gao' n stepsils for her throat. i took a cab to her hse n we stood by the road n chat for awhile.. heez.. we blocked the tiny road n 2 cars haffa squeeze through us.. i 'se bu de' leave her so earli.. so paid for the cab fare n tell him sayi'm getting off here.. heez. she asked me into her hse to sit for awhile.. hmm.. was bery shy actualli.. tried to reject.. but in the end, my legs listened to my hrt.. ahhaha.. ok anyway.. luckily she din see my red face mann.. hmm.. so paiseh..
haiz.. wondering when i can see her again.. miss her soo much..

13 hao xiang hao xiang hao xiang 02

small celebration at pasir ris park

2004-10-11T02:05:00.000+08:00

today my birthday wor !!!!!!! yipee.. came out meet adeline at pasir ris park today.. she last min asked me out.. i was kinda bored staying at home.. we went to play pool den move over to "the blue hut" the place where me celebrate xb's birthday.. we sat there having our dinner.. ate alot siaz.. sooo full.. wished we din order so much food.. =X was waiting for xb to come.. heez.. finalli she came ard 11pm.. she was sick!! hmm.. if i noe i wun haf ask her come le.. felt so guilty.. adeline left shortly cuz sharon n her fren came to fetch her.. so left me n xb.. we stayed there till bout 12 plus 1 den i send her home..
though kinda boring .. but still was happi.. heez.

chimp birthday

chimp chimp birthday

2004-10-09T21:31:00.000+08:00

ytd was maine baobei's birthday.. kriz brobro celebrated wif her "er ren shi jie" before meeting me le.. heez.. we went monks last nite wif my 2 bro bro n their steads.. alien, nick, jayus n owner was there.. was kinda bored last nite.. din played much... onli stayed there playing pool n drinking.. den went off ard 1+ ...

tis morning came work late wor.. heez.. luckily reach office onli afew of us.. the others oso late.. :P hmm.. after work, karen n i waited for ron to come fetched us.. waited till about 1.45pm.. we make our way to ECP.. we planned to go for a small picnic,swimming den go shopping..

when we arrived, frankie,alisa,jason,xb n marcus,lala,elvin,annie was there le wor.. hmm.. we walked over the the shelter, was surprised to see many things.. but din suspect anything. den suddenly a bbq wiring caught my attention.. heez.. i looked ard n realised dat they actualli planned a bbq for me wor.. heez.. was sooo surprised siaz.. i've got a birthday cake too.. dey realised i noe about the bbq thingy le.. soo happi.. i din expect a bbq held for me.. thought it wld be going for a dinner n some ktv thingy as celebration.. we went for swim after lunch.. annie n xb worre bikini wor.. ahahah.. took many pics too.. xb n jason bought me a white op shirt.. n alisa got me a wallet.. =) we stayed there till about 8pm den we go off..

realli relaxing day by the beach siaz.. soo fun.. realli appreciate the surprises they planned for me..

found out dat actualli ron, frankie n alisa went there earli morning den ron make the trip back to office jus to fetch me n karen... xb n jason went shop for my pressie n some food for the bbq.. karen n ron prepared all the food earlier dat week.. wah.. dey planned everything bout 2 weeks back le siaz.. me was lyk kept in dark.. not bad wor.. dey're good at acting.. ahahah..

chimpchimp surprised

party world

2004-09-11T11:28:00.000+08:00

came back bout 1plus last nite.. hmm.. went boat quay party world wif the usual group of ppl.. xb came ard 10plus.. ytd was as usual fun.. sang lotsa song.. but i went off ard 12 cuz haffa go for 2nd round at lighthouse 65.. went there meet adeline, nick n ken for drink.. hmm. they drank volka blue.. eee.. not nice.. wah.. ytd drank tiger, stout n volka.. ahhah 3 different drinks.. :P
sharon n zhang mei came fetch me n adeline home.. on the way back, dey were toking bout the 933 awards dat's gonna on air tonite.. hmm.. soo nice.. working in channel u.. can get to noe n make frens wif many celebrities.. n zhang min told us bout her personnal encounter.. eee.. erie siaz.. -_-"

annie bought us each a handfone holder toy.. mine was a duckiee.. heez..
xb brought her son to see a doc at nite n found out dat he gena chicken pox wor.. -_-" poor marcus.. jus came back from hospital den gena poky dots..

bad monday nite

2004-09-07T01:38:00.000+08:00

i jus came back from lesson.. today's lesson ends about 9.45pm.. my lecturer for today is de same air freight lecturer i had 2 yrs back.. heez.. quite happi to see him.. at last 1 familiar face in class le.. after class i went back office meet up wif frankie, alisa n karen.. dey help me prepare an authorised letter to help collect chq for my mom. hmm.. nowsaday bery tight.. my parents not working le.. me the onli one working.. haiz.. haben even get my mom her hat.. she's losing lotsa hair due to her illness.. dun wish to see her bald.. =( realli can't imagine..

tis fri my colleagues going for ktv session again le.. i feel lyk going badly.. but if i go, i'll definetly dun haf enuff to last me til next pay siaz.. my mom still wans me get her a hat, a thermometer, a few puzzle set for her fren's kids.. haiz.. sick mann.. was so happi wif the amount i'm earning.. but it turn out dat i'm the onli one in the family working.. diaox..

money problem is sicko mann... hope next mth faster come by den i dun haffa pay so much fone bill le. yippee..

13^haiz..

sleepy sleepy sleepy

2004-09-06T13:50:00.000+08:00

today's a sleepy monday siaz.. sooo busi somemore.. hmm.. me n karen helping darrell do her USA trade docs.. i do until wanna die le.. heez.. so take a short break now.. yeah.. lunch break le.. *yawn* today late for work again.. =P hmm.. was chatting wif ron, xb, annie n lala on msn..
met a cute ger online.. hmm.. started chatting wif her since morning.. den she went for her movie n tuition.. tink she came back ard 9pm ba.. den continue chatting wif her till bout 1plus.. haha.. she's a straight.. from tpjc wor..from tpjc wor.. heez.. she's a turtle :p cuz i let her choose between turtle n pig's icon.. she choose turtle..

tonite having lesson again.. sian.. arrgghhh.. i hate going for lesson alone.. y alwaiz haffa go skool or lesson alone de.. sicko..

yeah.. my lunch coming le.. hmm.. yummy yummy yum yum..

13 miss xb n turtle.. =P [hua xin] hahah

2004-09-02T14:17:00.000+08:00

miss Xb lotsa.. she din come for work since tues. cuz her son admitted to hospital.. went wif annie n her bf, ron to visit her n her son marcus. she slim down alot.. marcus the poor boy look bery sad on bed.. hmm.. hope she take good care of herself wor.. hospital bery cold de siaz.. she must be freezing everynite.. ytd bery happi to be able to see her.. =) office seems bery wierd without her wor..

today ron make honey drink for alisa.. but he dare not gif her.. ahhah.. in the end he "borrowed" me.. he ask me to pretend to make honey for myself n for her.. but actualli is prepared by him de lah.. heez.. tis idea sounds familiar wor.. last time i oso make a cup for XB.. but i tell her say i wanna drink so shun bian make 1 for her.. :P but she still noe i make specially for her de.. haha.. smart obasan :P

hmm.. hope to be able to see her at work soon wor.. n of cuz marcus to get well soon.. ltr will be going novena square to get a ait walker balloon for marcus.. make sure he smile n play wif it wor.. heez..

13^happi.

best fridae

2004-08-28T10:40:00.000+08:00

last nite was another fridae fun.. haha.. went down chinatown wif karen.. met XB, jason, ronald n nick.
alisa n frankie came after dat to haf dinner at the market. Lala joined us after our dinner.. hmm.. dinner was
soo yummy.. the dinner cost bout 100plus wor.. we went to amara hotel "walls street" pub for a drink..
surprisingly we all had cocktails n coffee.. ahah.. no beer on a fridae nite wor.. :P
we played "true or dare" n "numbers in between".. we all enjoyed the game.. ahah.. xb n me laugh the loudest wor.. :P
stoopid xb dare me to kiss the uncle at the bar counter.. -_-" they were so surprise dat i realli walked over n kiss him.. ahahah
must be sporty marhz.. =P ltr part of the game, frankie gena a dare from me to walk out of the pub n dance.
ahhaha.. dat's real farni siaz.. we laff till pengz.. hmm..

the whole session ended ard 12plus.. lala,jason,alisa n ronald left in frankie's car.. karen n nick
walk off to get a cab.. xb pei me go take mrt together.. we walked to the station, it was close.. arrghhh....
we got no choice but to take cab le.. heez.. she sent me home first cuz i've got no money.. she got off the cab wif me at my hse..
she's suppose to wait for her bro to come fetch her.. but in the end, something crop up.. n she left in a cab..
hmm.. i watch her go off without her noticing..
cuz she ask me to go home first.. but i stayed somewhere to watch over her.. i dun lyk to see her alone.. somemore so late le
but i noe i haffa leave her alone cuz she was on the fone.. i hide by the lift there.. awhile ltr, i din hear her voice le.. i faster came out
from my "hiding place" i walk to the stairs n saw her in the cab.. hmm.. she's gone.. i stayed on till she's out of sight den i went home.

last nite realli enjoyed myself wor.. heez.. sooooo fun..

one n onli story for XB

2004-08-25T12:29:00.000+08:00

last nite went bugis wif alisa for hair cut.. eh.. wasn't me who went for hair cut.. its alisa.. heez.. she cut
damn short siaz.. wif a long tail at the back.. look kinda wierd *shurd*
after dat met terranna for dinner.. left home ard 9plus ba.. soo tired.. me happi wor.. cuz i bought "peel"
yeah.. the cig smell so nice.. finalli found it after lyk a month..
came home ard 10plus n was on msn chat wif XB, ron n ghost.. hmm..
xb sounded kinda vexxed.. dunno wad happen to her..
actualli i was thinking if wad alisa said was true.. she told me ytd dat if a person lyks u, but u dun lyk her/him,
n dat person treats u damn nice, u'll feel kinda "fang gan" hmm.. pissed off i tink.. she's actualli refering to herself..
n if so happen dat xb ytd oso kinda sounds so vexxed.. i decided to jus leave her alone.. ytd made her a cup of honey..
heez 1st time make honey for her wor.. cuz she got a sore throat.. hmm..

anyway i've thought over the nite... tink i've made up my mind le.. i choose to let go.. but i'll alwaiz be there for her
whenever she needs me to lend a listening ear.. hmm..

[F][O][R] [X][B]
============
Met her for the first time on 1st Jun 04.. din felt anything.
She seems lyk a stranger to me -
An ordinary ger wif extra loud voice..

Time flew pass with amazing speed.
A month's gone.. Feelings came unexpectedly.
Started missing her whenever she's not around.
Wondered to myself..
How did i fall in love with you

She start confiding to me.
Telling me her problems.
Tried to be there for her.
Try not to add on burden to her bout my feelings

She's facing lotsa problem..
She can't solve them..
She cried.. I felt helpless..
Wad can i do..

I wished i can tell her..
Let me share ur burden n sorrows..
I wished i can tell her..
I want u to be mine..
Something's stopping me..
I can't find the words..

I noe its impossible..
Who is she.. Who am i..
She's a straight..

Another month passed..
I start showing her i dun feel for her.
Dun wish to make her feel pressurized
I tried hard..
I still can hear her voice inside me.
Tears swell up deep within my heart.

This love, memories..
I'll keep within myself..
She's an angel i've known

sleepyhead..

2004-08-22T19:42:00.000+08:00

me woke up at 2plus in the afternoon today siaz.. ytd went beach wif xb n her son, lala n her bf,jason,frankie,alisa n ronald.. we went there sun tanning.. in the end onli me,ron n frankie sun tanning.. ahah.. the other sitting under the shade.. hmm.. her son bery cute.. call me "meatball" somemore.. *gggrrrhhh* cannot blame.. ahha.. got cute mom of cuz got cute son.. he called frankie "botak uncle" ahahah.. worse than me.. :P

ard 3plus 4, they left.. me walk down towardsbedok jetty to meet adeline n her bf ah boon.. hmm.. was kinda wierd cuz the 2 of them couple.. den me alone.. hmm was thinking of meeting them le den go off.. but after that we went to hawker n get some drinks.. den ah boon suggest going kbox.. i was lyk.. huh.. wah.. i jus went ktv session on fri.. wif all my colleagues to celebrate karen's birthday..

hmm.. i called xb ask if she's going.. she said ok.. after she wake up den call me.. diaox.. tis piggy slept till 8plus 9 wor.. hmm.. noe she must be bery tired.. was kinda disappointed thou.. but nvm lah.. she lack of sleep le.. better stay at home n rest.. :) hmm.. yeah.. was tinking if tml got breakfast.. hahah.. so fast.. tml monday again le wor.. oh no.. karen wun be ard wor.. cuz its her birthday.. heez..

so xian.. my birthday is on sun.. gonna be a boring day mann..

msn chatty wif her,annie,ron

2004-08-19T08:58:00.000+08:00

yeah.. last nite chat wif annie,xb,ron n apple on msn.. rush home first thing online le wor.. heez.. cuz kinda got tis feeling dat she's there.. hmm.. she onli had 2 cup of the small maggie mee for dinner.. diaox.. ltr at nite sure search for chips to eat de.. heez..
ytd she keep laughing over john tay's "sai suan".. ahhah.. she laff bery cute.. thou her voice damn loud.. but still cute.. hahah.. nvm.. -_-"

hmm.. was chatting on msn wif her in pte.. den i went to ask her if i'll be getting breakfast.. she reply "of coz.. ai xin breakfast.. hahahahaah" diaox.. -_-"""" so paiseh.. wah... *face red*
when i told her its ok.. i dowan the breakfast le.. heez. she replied me "steady! offer u.. u reject.. sob sob.. no more offer le.." ahhah.. so cute.. she first time put "sob sob" wor.. she alwaiz sound so fierce de.. heez..

13^smiley

drunkard chimp

2004-08-18T00:27:00.000+08:00

yeah.. me back le.. hmm went kbox wif adeline jus now.. suppose to meet jasper at town.. but called her at 5plus n she sound as if she sleeping.. diaox.. anyway me meeting adeline at tp. so called to tell jasper not meeting her.. luckily neba meet her siaz.. if not dunno meet wad time le.. hmm

me went dinner wif annie at sakae.. den wait for adeline to come come after her dinner.. we went kbox.. so qiao.. xb oso going there.. diaox.. she's there wif her frens.. saw her in a room.. stoopid adeline during the song, wanna go washroom den "shun bian" walk past to see how xb look lyk.. haha.. but she ah gon walk.. see oso dunno howta see properly.. diaox.. hmm.. had fun in the room.. we alwaiz had fun singing alone.. playing stoopid songs.. hahah..
today drunk 1 1/2mug beer n wine.. was lyk so "seh".. whole face turn red.. luckily manage to reach home siaz..

today xb saw my blog.. -_-" sooo malu.. wrote so much things bout her.. n all my feelings.. nvm.. dun tink she'll come read again.. heez.. tis morning din wan her get breakfast for me.. cuz dowan her waste money.. so in the end i had maggie mee.. but when she came work, she brought sausage n mushroom.. yummy.. my 2 fav. food.. regret neva ask her make breakfast for me.. ayway she offered me 1 mushroom n sausage.. yum yum.. today happi.. she bought for us lotsa chicken wings.. i bought a potato ball for her wor.. cuz its nice.. hmm.. tonite din see her online.. dunno she got drink the soup when she hungry not.. n neva ask her how's her backache.. tml see her in office den ask her ba.. ltr keep asking she say i naggy.. she's the obasan le.. how can i be obasan hor.. so cannot be so naggy.. ;P

13 happi..

monday blue

2004-08-16T18:08:00.000+08:00

last nite chat wif her till bout 2am on msn wor.. first time chat wif her at nite for bout 2 hours.. heez.. when she came online, i was shock n happi wor.. was missing her.. den suddenly she come in le.. =P last week oso lidat.. was missing her den she suddenly ask if i wanna go out on her birthday eve... hmm.. too bad neva go watch the fireworks.. remember last yr i went watch wif my str8 fren adeline.. noe her for 6yrs.. first time watch together wor.. somemore the fireworks caught us by surprise.. we din even noe there's one dat nite.. heez..

woke up late n came to work late tis morning.. she bought me fried bee hoon wif luncheon meat n egg wor.. yum.. i luv luncheon meat.. heez.. ate soo full siaz.. she realli wan me to become meat ball ar.. -_-"
hmm.. oh ya.. meat ball is my nick.. ahha.. cuz os the stoopid show "qiang wei zi lian" dat's how my nick came about..

today bery busi siaz.. my workload seems to be so pack.. one after another.. today.. i tried making transhipment booking.. heez.. ok lah.. not as difficult as i thought.. though i tried b4 few yrs ago.. but forget le.. heez..

now is alreadi 6.15pm le.. feel lyk slacking.. my brain shut down le.. *yawn*
today fag alot siaz.. hmm.. feel lyk going pasir ris park there sit n relax.. but dun tink anyone wil be going.. dey'll tink i'm siao siaz.. hahah.. starting of the week go there..

hmm.. tis morning valerie [61] suddenly msg me say i gave her the wrong indication.. she ask me to gif her another chance n dat she'll change.. lyk wad the hell lor.. after she did so many thing, den she say its actualli to gif me a taste of my own medicine cuz i choose to leave her for XB.. anyway i alreadi make myself clear to her.. no matter wad i wun go back.. i dun wish to be hurt again by her.. my trust towards her is totally gone.. i dun wish to be wif her n lyk another.. i've to make a desicion.. somemore the things she did in the past realli pissed me off.. i see no reason to continue wif her..

hmm.. tired le.. dun feel lyk blogging..

13^pissed.

wAd a BorInG sUndAy

2004-08-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

soo bored today.. hmm.. ytd kinda boring though played a whole day of billard n pool.. i guess dat's where i find myself.. indulging in pool n billards.. at least i wun fall for the wrong person when i'm indulge in them.. haiz.. tml i've to gif terranna an answer le.. i'm still wondering if i should go.. no doubt the reason i choose to stay.. but terranna's kinda my close fren.. we shared our ups n downs working happily together b4... i realli dunno howta reject her.. i've rejected her once 2yrs ago when she hinted me her feelings.. now i've to reject her offer.. diaox.. at times i realli felt i'm being bery bad to her.. hope she forgot bout the whole offer tml.. heez.. hmm.. haiz.. dunno lah.. anyway if i choose to go there in the end, the reason is definetly not cuz of money matters..

**********13 in dilema*********

i tink i'm staying at my present office.. heez.. cuz i love all the ppl here.. each n everyone though dey may haf faults in a way or another.. n most importantly, i can stay by XB as a fren whenever she's sad.. haiz.. though it hurts me to see her lidat.. but "na shi wo ai ta de most suitable angle"
yeah tml got "ai xin zao chang" (ai xin breakfast) cuz is she prepare for me de.. so i call it ai xin zao chang.. hope in a week there's no sat or sun.. ahhah.. den i everyday got breakfast from her.. =P

wow.. i lyk her for a mth le wor.. hmm.. since 16 july 2004 till now wor.. dat's fast.. i din even realise dat..

13 sings soledad

Soledad
by Westlife

If only you could see the tears in
The world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart
Just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realize
You're a loss I can't replace

(Chourus)
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Walking down the streets of Nothingville
Where our love was young and free
I cant believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Coz I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name

(Chourus)

Time will never change the things
You told me
And after all were meant to be
Love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see

(Repeat chourus till end)

sAt bLUe

2004-08-14T10:22:00.000+08:00

went fisherman village for dinner wif ronald,alisa,frankie n XB.. enjoyed ourselves at there.. we ordered sooo much food siaz.. i finished my rice too fast.. alisa n Xb gave me their portion cuz they dowan too much.. i machiam lyk "fan tong" after dinner, annie n her bf came join us.. we walked over to "THE BLUE dunno wad" haahaa.. i onli noe its the same place where i celebrate her birthday. hmm we sat there eat n drink.. ordered 4 jugs n a basket of chicken wings.. i shared wif XB.. she took the drum n gave me the wing..
She brought her CD there n ask them to play.. i told her i lyk a song "Ni Shi Wo Laopo by Ren Xian Qi" den she ask me.. who i wan to be her laopo.. i told her "definetly not u" =P ahhahah..
ard 12plus we went home in annie's bf car.. ronald n alisa went wif frankie..

terranna called me n ask if i wanna hop over to her office n work.. she's offering me more than wad i get in my present.. the pay likewise is of cuz not a problem.. who dowan a job wif higher pay.. n over at her side, promotion is much much more easier than here.. haiz.. the offer looks bery tempting.. but i noe there's something dat's stopping me from hopping over.. n de reason is bcoz she's here.. i jus wanna stay by her n be there for her through her joys n sorrows..

breakfast from XB

2004-08-13T13:32:00.000+08:00

ytd after work went down town wif alisa to meet up wif my ex classmates.. maureen,beeleng,lina,n jane.. went swensons for dinner den i go bugis meet terranna..
reach home ard 11plus siaz.. soo tired.. fall asleep after msging XB..

She got breakfast for me today wor.. soo nice.. she make garlic bread ,fried prawn n bought ice milo for me.. happi wor.. =Þ last nite she say she'll take over my breakfast duties for the time being.. heez.. yeah.. tonite we going fisherman village together wif other colleagues..

hmm.. next fri i've to take leave to pei my mom to see doc.. hope everything gonna be alrite.. den everything will go back to normal le.. after all these things happen, guess i've got no mood foranything le.. everyday jus the same.. glad Xb was there n her every small doings make me smile.. =)

i miss my bros bros.. wonder when i can get to meet up wif them go out play.. me everyday lyk so busi.. no time for anything..

ytd Xb's manager ask her if she wanna transfer to air freight centre.. i ask her so is she going.. she told me no.. kinda happi.. dunno y ytd me felt so happi bout everything.. hope tonite turns out well n sweet too..

13^trAlalalal

XB birthday eve

2004-08-10T11:34:00.000+08:00

ytd bery happi.. i spent a nice birthday wif someone i lyk =) it was actualli a last minute thingy.. she ask if i wanna come out ard 8pm.. n i told her ok.. i went get ready n rush outta hse by 8.30.. i wanted to get some sparkles so dat can play ltr at the beach.. but couldn't find it anywhere cuz it was a holiday.. den couldn't get a cake oso.. in the end i've to take a cab to the J8.. i bought her a cake.. me stand outside the cake shop for bery long siaz.. cuz i was hesitating wad cake to get for her.. she dun lyk chocolate cake.. dat mafan de obasan.. heez.. in the end i choose a chocolate instead.. no choice lah.. hmm.. den i wanted to get her a pressie.. me walk ard.. couldn't see anything suitable.. got her a small bouquet of flowers.. nothing special actualli.. hmm.. she called me ard 9.15pm.. took a cab down to fetch her at her hse there.. while waiting at the bus stop for her call to board the cab, many ppl walk pass me wif those smiling look siaz.. so paiseh... kaoz.. my whole face turn red siaz..

finalli we reach pasir ris park.. we went to somewhere near fisherman village.. sat there drink n chat n eat.. she dinno the cake was for her.. cuz i bluff her its for my mom.. we chat till bout 10plus.. den got to noe a lady from another table.. she is a taiwanese.. she came over our table n sat down n chat.. she's quiet nice to chat wif.. glad dat XB was happi.. =) at least she wun feel so bored le ba.. heez.. i was waiting for 12am to come.. dat'll be the time where the real surprise is.. heez.. ard 11.55pm i went over to the bar counter n prepare for the cake.. i light the candles n brought the cake over while dey played the birthday song.. =) she got a nice surprise wor.. heez.. she cried.. =X diaox.. dowanna see her cry.. but there's nothing i can do..

after everything, we sat down n chat.. n she sorta ask if i lyk her.. i thought over before answering.. i'm aware of this sentence.. "luv someone, u haffa let her noe.. or else u'll regret.." finalli i confess.. i noe if she's going to avoid me, i wun regret.. cuz at least i kept some happy memories of us within me.. dat's enough for me le.. i neva wish or hope dat she'll be mine one day.. i jus hope i can stay by her through her up n downs..

13^happi

dead monday

2004-08-09T17:56:00.000+08:00

national day today siaz.. me hasn't been going out since sat le.. wanna die le siaz.. i miss XB soo much.. haf been trying to occupy myself so dat i dun miss her so much.. haiz.. tml her birthday le.. n she wun be working tml. so stoopid.. birthday can haf a day off from work.. kaoz.. den i dun get to see her.. hmm.. hope she's free so dat we can go for celebration den i can see her tml nite wor.. :P

has been chatting wif saphy on msn today.. was on the fone wif bane, angeline n saphy for a while.. den stoopid bane keep hanging up the call cuz her mom comes into the room.. diaox..

hope i can get XB outta my hrt soon.. dun lyk to miss/lyk her in silence.. dere's no way i can lyk her in open.. cuz i belief i'll definetly find rejection in the end.. she's who.. n i'm who.. she's waiting for her laugong to come back in dec.. y do i alwaiz fall for the wrong person.. kinda miss [91] sometimes.. but its better to keep memories of a person..

bored bored bored..

kbox wif XB

2004-08-07T15:40:00.000+08:00

ytd XB took half day leave.. she msg me in the morning saying she cooking now le.. heez.. den we keep msging for awhile n i told her better stop wor.. in case she burn herself.. during lunch hour, i went out to bedok for lunch wif adele,evelyn,john,dean and karen.. went i came back office, XB is in le.. she brought the chinese meat roll for me wor.. :D dat time i was damn full le.. but she msn me n ask me to faster finish cuz she dowan let someone see the food.. hmm.. i no choice but to stuff all the 5 rolls in wor.. -_-" i told her i stuff all in le.. she look at me n laff.. kaoz.. ltr ard 5plus, we sang her a birthday song in the conference room.. ronald got her a birthday cake.. heez.. too bad i haben get a camera fone.. couldn't take a pic of her.. after the whole small celebration, i went back to my sit.. i sat there eating my cake quietly thinking bout my mom's case.. she jus got her report.. things doesn't look good.. n she haffa go for operation. XB came along n saw me sitting there.. she ask me out for a smoking break.. den we chat outside.. ltr at nite, she n annie pei me go kbox sing n drink.. cuz dey noe i luv to go.. thanks to them.. XB realli there for me everytime i needed someone..

me long time nia meet my bros le.. kriz's busi wif her newly open stall.. n jasper busi working.. haiz.. hope to meet out wif them soon..

chimp sob

2004-07-30T18:00:00.000+08:00

something happened at home today.. hope my mom will be ok.. the report will onli be out on wed.. i can onli pray that its non-cancerous..
XB,frankie n darrell was there for me when i cried jus now.. i left my workplace ard 4.30pm den took a cab home n my workload was pass on to karen.. i felt so bad.. haffa let her do my tings.. haiz.. hope she can manage wor.. i tink tml i'm going back to work to clear some other thingy.. if not mon will haf a whole junk siaz..

hungry hungry..

2004-07-29T12:09:00.000+08:00

wow.. another 1 week gone.. heez.. ytd got pay le wor.. hmm.. spent bout $500 le.. so fast siaz.. =X
yippee.. today going cut hair.. heez.. hmm.. dunno wad style to cut wor.. feel lyk changing my style..
jus got the latest update for my tipman trip.. me adele karen n john going for the earlier bus trip.. wah seh.. must wake up at 5am siaz.. rush for the 6am bus.. *raise eyebrow* sooooo earli siaz.. den the rest coming in the afternoon.. haha.. come to tink of it.. i tink i rather wake up qt 5am siaz.. cuz i dun haffa work.. heez.. traaalalala
now sooo bored.. alone in the office wif XB, alisa.. dey all go out for lunch at serangoon le.. me sooo hungry.. feel lyk going wif them.. but my dept noone ard.. i so great.. ahah.. xi shen =P

13^hungry

yawN

2004-07-01T10:50:00.000+08:00

celebrated crystal's birthday on tues wif adeline,jasper,emily.. realli damn busi siaz.. woke up earli to prepare everything.. she arrived at the chalet ard 4pm.. i arranged a cab to go fetch her.. the cabby not suppose to tell her where he's heading.. but he forgotten n she knew dat she's going coasta sand pasir ris.. kaoz.. no more surprise le..
when she arrived at the chalet, she's not allowed to come upstair first.. :P cuz i haben finish making the flower..
finalli the whole thing is done ard 6plus.. i ask her close her eyes n come up the stairs.. when i open the door, i bring her into the room n ask her open her eyes..

tada.. heez.. she got a big surprise wor.. the room is filled wif floating blue balloons and bubbles.. we make the room look quite dim.. the whole thing is damn sweet.. lying on the bed is a white board wif 3 storey hrt shape.. blue roses and baby's breathe were on each storeys..

she told me dat was the best birthday pressie she ever had.. its was lyk a fairy tale dreamy.. wif many balloons n bubbles in the air..

ard 8 plus we went to a small outdoor pub at pasir ris park n haf dinner.. the tables n chairs were bery small.. we went down to let the balloons go.. she make her wish n let 24 balloons fly.. :) she bring home the rest of the 25 balloons.

i dun ask for anything.. i noe i've got no place in her hrt.. i jus hope she'll keep this day in her forever..

she msg me at nite.. saying dat she neva stop smiling the whole day after seeing the whole deco. it realli make her forget all her worries.. n she'll neva forget tis day..

dat's all i'm asking from her..

13^smile

sUndAy :)

2004-06-27T18:47:00.000+08:00

i din blog for a long long long time le wor.. went down monks on fri.. heez.. yeah.. finalli i "chong chu jiang hu" again.. :P went there got drunk wor.. onli 3 cup n i was drunk.. shittty rite.. last time can drink more than dat.. must realli go more often le.. if not my "jiu liang" sure drop till 0 siaz..

saw nelson n her stead at the bridge.. dat time i was drunk le.. n i thought her stead was [14].. i was so upset siaz.. i went back monks n i hug jasper n cried.. so malu siaz.. den after dat jasper pei me come out n see dem.. jasper told me wasn't [14] it was miao.. hahah.. shit lor.. so sia suay.. hmm.. dunno how come i cried oso..

actualli val wanted to come along find me.. but in the end she met her someone n she din wanna come le.. me stayed there till 12plus 1 i tink.. couldn't realli remember the time clearly..

jus now LeeThin came my hse borrow comp.. after dat i bring her go get her comp.. its onli bout 300 bucks wor.. so cheap can.. thou its 2nd hand but its quite new.. me came home watch my channel U.. damn tired siaz.. slept ard 4plus n wake up at 10plus to go fetch LeeThin..

yeah.. crystal's birthday coming soon le.. me still haben realli prepare her pressie.. hope to get everything done by tues.. :D

13^excited

ªtuesday blueª

2004-06-22T20:33:00.000+08:00

wah... long time nia blog le wor.. hmm.. *yawn* me today so tired.. yesterday stayed back at work till 9plus.. today oso.. i stayed back not doing my work wor.. but helping my colleague to their work.. good rite.. hmm.. so hungry now..

was actualli bery upset today.. din realise crystal has neva left my hrt.. i onli realise it today after toking to her today bout the one she lyk now. but i can do nothing at all cuz i noe she'll neva be mine again.. n she can neva gimme her 100%. i thought back bout our first mth.. everything was so sweet.. so nice.. she was jus the perfect one for me.. i luv her for who she is.. she's the onli one who can make me accept her for everything she does...

if onli i can still find my perfect one.. someone who's as perfect as her..
as for her, i can onli stand by her n wish her all the best.. luving her in silence.. cuz i noe that's the onli thing i noe i wun get rejected by her..

13^sob

ª¤ bored to death ¤ª

2004-06-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

today whole day at home wor.. heez hook on gunbound le.. :P hmm.. yeah.. jus finish planning crystal's birthday.. yeah.. tink its bery sweet.. :) wow.. lyk fairy tales lidat.. ahahah.. wanna make it bery memorable n sweet one.. heez.. even jasper's gf sounds interested bout my plan.. heez.. *excited* can't wait for 28th to come.. den i'll haf my pay.. n can go get all the things.. tink i'll haffa apply my leave on 28th n 29th..

hmm..tml going kbox again le.. going wif saitin n joanne.. my last time classmates.. hmm.. neva go wif them b4.. let's see if dey're fun to be wif.. :P

fri din getta go monks.. i went swensons wif my manager n colleagues.. heez.. had fun wif dem.. den after swensons, we went liang seah st. one of the pub.. sit there n drink.. :) we planning to go singing next week wor.. heez
wow.. next week full booking le.. :P

13^happi

burpie

2004-06-11T13:23:00.000+08:00

yumm.. jus finish my lunch.. had terriyaki salmon set.. :D
wah.. long time nia blog le wor.. had been playing gunbound these days.. yeah.. tonite going out wif my colleague le.. actualli planning to go ktv.. but last min xiao bao couldn't make it.. so haffa change it to another day.. haiz.. in the end we going swensons for dinner den haf a drink.. yeah.. tis co. so happening.. :) jus now stoopid boss call during lunch break.. he claim dat everyone out for lunch.. wad if customers call, den no one's going to answer the fone le.. hmm.. stoopid lor. call during lunch break.. of cuz all the staff out for lunch lah.. nvm.. anyway i'm not under customer services.. heez.. so dun nidda fear bout him bringing up tis issue.. heng i'm in export dept siaz.. so relaxing here..

hmm.. okok.. time to start work le.. :) will blog again tml nite..

13^smiles

happi happi

2004-06-08T01:08:00.000+08:00

happi happi wor.. :) me got new template for my blog le.. heez.. thanks berline dear.. :P she help me change de wor.. sooo nice... hmm.. me ah gong.. haben figure out howta change template.. heez.. shusshh...

me jus came back from kbox wor.. actualli wanted to meet [14] for a while after my work but she left town area le.. me n jasper went ps to find her her stead adeline.. den went kbox wif kriz,maine,ivy,jasper,adeline n her 2 frens.. we had 2 rooms cuz of some problem wif jasper n her stead.. so in the end onli me, kriz, maine n ivy in a room.. not bad wor.. heez.. can get to sing more songs wif lesser ppl.. :P today was quite fun.. but halfway, kriz n maine had small arguments again.. haiz..

hmm.. luckily today on my way home got someone pei me tok.. heez if not i'll fall asleep on the bus n miss my stop lyk i alwaiz do.. -_-" but elaine called for awhile den my stoopid mom called n tok for so long.. when i went over next line, she hang up le.. =X hmm.. hope to meet up wif dem on thursday again wor.. long time neva had such fun ever since i start work.. :)

hope [14] wun be so upset le ya..

13^looking forward 2 thurs

hols mood

2004-06-05T08:48:00.000+08:00

now is alreadi 8.50am le wor.. hmm.. my colleague still haben come work.. -_-" lucky apple came earli to open the door for me.. if not i'll be stuck outside the office now.. =X today is the 4th day i'm working here.. =) still doing fine at the moment.. ahahah.. wait till i'm given the all my shipment n transhipment.. n the USA trade thingy.. dat will be my doom day.. -_-" heard from terranna dat tis USA thingy cannot afford mistakes.. if not can fine up to USD5000 siaz.. diaox..

these few days after work damn boring siaz.. neva realli meet my bros.. din see jasper for lyk damn long le lor.. if i'm not wrong, the last time i met her was the time i met her n [14] at suntec.. *tink back* wah.... so long???? for kriz, not so bad.. at least i met her lyk 2 days ago wif krystal n terranna..

heard from kriz dat crystal was at monks wif spencer n frens yesterday.. *raise eyebrow* she got a luv bite wor.. hmm.. nvm..

oh ya.. dat stoopid V.. keep saying she's my stead.. so irritating mann.. keep telling her i dunno her well n i dun lyk her.. pissed me off mann..

yeah.. my colleagues comes in le.. hmm. time to start work le wor..

got job le

2004-05-31T22:25:00.000+08:00

yipee.. me finalli found a job le.. sooo happi.. heez.. starting work tml.. yeah.. soo happi.. hmm.. a stable job wif a good income.. *jumps for joy* hmm.. neva go back NP return the lan card cuz i over-slept.. luckily not late in meeting adeline..

hmm.. can't wait to tell [14] i got a job.. she must be still outside.. haben reach home..
tml after work haffa meet crystal to gif her tuition.. long time nia see her le wor..

yeah.. me going watch deep blue sea now le.. my favourite show wor..

13^jump for joy